Gonna make this a quick post...i'm just sitting here waiting for Phoebe to come over, because she's sleeping over and we're going to the movies with Cassey tomorrow to see Fool's Gold.
i heard it was supposed to be good...but i don't know we'll see. Anyways, as long as i'm here i might as well tell you what's been happening since my last post.
Well let's just start of with the obvious. Valentine's was kinda sucky...i mean we had no dance or anything and even if there was a dance i wouldn't be very excited about it. i don't know why but i'm not into them anymore. People keep saying that it's all because Cameron...but i don't think so.
Speaking of him, i did some deep thinking a while ago and realized that i still couldn't get over him! It's just insane i mean i should be FINISHED with him...he should be out of my mind by now but nnooo...everything i think of or see remindes me of him. i don't want to be doing this.
When i see him in he hall or somewhere, i turn around and go the other way...ughh i hate this. I told my friend Kelsey about this and she said that i just need more time to get over it. But i've already had enough time!! It's been almost 2 months i mean how much more time do i need?!??!
*Deep Breath*
Okayy...i just need to calm down. Sorry, this has been bugging me a lot lately and i can't deal with it anymore but oh well, i suppose that something can turn out great from all this...i just hope it's soon.
Anyway, i better go now Phoebe will be here any minute.
If you guys have anything to say, just comment and i'll be reading =].
Latterrr All.<3
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Past Three Days
i don't know if this post is gonna be long or short but all i'm gonna tell you know is that i'm gonna write as much as i can:).
i'm guessing that this is a big shock to you all that i'm writing now...i mean you would probably think that my next post won't be until next month but people can surprise you! i decided to write anyways, i mean i'm a little tired but not quite and i don't have anything to do so why not write a little?
So, since i don't have big news and stuff...i'll just fill you in what happened from the past few days.
Sunday: It was my mom's birthday and once i woke up i wished her a happy birthday. i was thinking about making her breakfast in bed with my sister but that didn't work out because i never had the chance to tell her lol. I got my mom a card since i'm not the right person to pick out birthday presents and plus, my sister wanted to get her something on that day. Right after breakfast we went to Costco and my mom liked this china that had very pretty designs on it and she thought it was too expensive so she decided not to get it. Although my sister was a sneeky one and brought a camera then told me to take the picture of that plate so she could send it to her boyfriend and pay him to buy it from that store. i was of course a little scared because i knew that taking pictures in stores was not allowed and i was afraid to get caught. But luckily, i pushed all my fear aside and managed to take that picture and write down all the information that was on the display card. Then, after my sis send him the picture he went and bought and when he came to our house my sister payed him with her money and my money (some :P) and also he payed himself. Anyway, my mom loved it and she invited her friends to have dinner at our house. It was kinda boring...i mean i didn't really have anything to do...all i did was eat and just sit there, partly listening to the conversation and mostly just day dreaming for an hour, hahhaa.
Monday: Went to school...yada yada yada. Came home and did homework...watched tv...read...watched more tv...went to bed. As you can see not much happened that day.
Tuesday: Had school...nothing interesting was there. So after school since we had no homework, i invited Sara over to my house to hang out and stuff. When she came we went on her Tickle account and she showed me some quizzes and made me take them...they were kinda stupid but whatever, although Sara and i both found out that we were a little emo, hahaa...that's what one of the quizzes said :D. We also decided to make our own quiz to ask people how well they know us...they were pretty hard and weird questions and we took about 2 hours making it for only 12 questions :P. And after we had 1 coke each we began to feel a little high and started listening to Hannah Montana songs. Then, we started dancing on my bed and Sara made up a special dance for the song "Nobody's Perfect" it was hilarious...you should've seen it. I recorded a random video of her just talking very loud and...high, lol. So, at 6 she got picked up and left and i accidently deleted the quiz so she got a little mad :P...but whatever...we can make a new one next time, we sorta remember it all...so yea. Anyway, at 10:00pm my friend Jaylin (well not really my friend, i don't really talk to her that much...she tends to be mean sometimes but sometimes she's alright) called me and asked my some Science questions and i was like "aww...come on...now?"...luckily i got through about 20 questions from her in what seemed like an hour and hung up. And now i'm here :).
Okay, i'm gonna go now...my eyes keep closing every 5 seconds and besides, my mom thinks i'm already asleep right now so i think i better go do that.
Later guys... i will TRYY to write very soon...soo keep commenting...i look forward to reading them:).
Also, check out mari's blog (xo LilMizMari xo) her blog is awesome :D...you'll love it;) its www.thestoryofagirlnamedmari.blogspot.com.
Alright, no more writing for me...i'm gonna go for real now...bye everyone<3.
i'm guessing that this is a big shock to you all that i'm writing now...i mean you would probably think that my next post won't be until next month but people can surprise you! i decided to write anyways, i mean i'm a little tired but not quite and i don't have anything to do so why not write a little?
So, since i don't have big news and stuff...i'll just fill you in what happened from the past few days.
Sunday: It was my mom's birthday and once i woke up i wished her a happy birthday. i was thinking about making her breakfast in bed with my sister but that didn't work out because i never had the chance to tell her lol. I got my mom a card since i'm not the right person to pick out birthday presents and plus, my sister wanted to get her something on that day. Right after breakfast we went to Costco and my mom liked this china that had very pretty designs on it and she thought it was too expensive so she decided not to get it. Although my sister was a sneeky one and brought a camera then told me to take the picture of that plate so she could send it to her boyfriend and pay him to buy it from that store. i was of course a little scared because i knew that taking pictures in stores was not allowed and i was afraid to get caught. But luckily, i pushed all my fear aside and managed to take that picture and write down all the information that was on the display card. Then, after my sis send him the picture he went and bought and when he came to our house my sister payed him with her money and my money (some :P) and also he payed himself. Anyway, my mom loved it and she invited her friends to have dinner at our house. It was kinda boring...i mean i didn't really have anything to do...all i did was eat and just sit there, partly listening to the conversation and mostly just day dreaming for an hour, hahhaa.
Monday: Went to school...yada yada yada. Came home and did homework...watched tv...read...watched more tv...went to bed. As you can see not much happened that day.
Tuesday: Had school...nothing interesting was there. So after school since we had no homework, i invited Sara over to my house to hang out and stuff. When she came we went on her Tickle account and she showed me some quizzes and made me take them...they were kinda stupid but whatever, although Sara and i both found out that we were a little emo, hahaa...that's what one of the quizzes said :D. We also decided to make our own quiz to ask people how well they know us...they were pretty hard and weird questions and we took about 2 hours making it for only 12 questions :P. And after we had 1 coke each we began to feel a little high and started listening to Hannah Montana songs. Then, we started dancing on my bed and Sara made up a special dance for the song "Nobody's Perfect" it was hilarious...you should've seen it. I recorded a random video of her just talking very loud and...high, lol. So, at 6 she got picked up and left and i accidently deleted the quiz so she got a little mad :P...but whatever...we can make a new one next time, we sorta remember it all...so yea. Anyway, at 10:00pm my friend Jaylin (well not really my friend, i don't really talk to her that much...she tends to be mean sometimes but sometimes she's alright) called me and asked my some Science questions and i was like "aww...come on...now?"...luckily i got through about 20 questions from her in what seemed like an hour and hung up. And now i'm here :).
Okay, i'm gonna go now...my eyes keep closing every 5 seconds and besides, my mom thinks i'm already asleep right now so i think i better go do that.
Later guys... i will TRYY to write very soon...soo keep commenting...i look forward to reading them:).
Also, check out mari's blog (xo LilMizMari xo) her blog is awesome :D...you'll love it;) its www.thestoryofagirlnamedmari.blogspot.com.
Alright, no more writing for me...i'm gonna go for real now...bye everyone<3.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
Bump In The Road
Guess who's back?:p.
Yupperrss...its the person who doesn't write often..hahaa.
Heehe...sorry if i'm kinda high. i don't really know what happened but i was drinking water and being my normal self until i heard a song that got me to get up and dance like...um...a chimp getting high on crack. Weird example..but i'll use it.
Anyway, to start off i would like to say perfectly clear that CAMERON AND I ARE OVER. It happened pretty simple, like most break-ups do. i didn't "feel" like talking to him that much over the winter holidays because i didn't like the way he was acting. He was just being very lazy and boring and didn't wanna do anything so i was like "forget it" and just stopped contacting him for a little while.
Then on January 3rd, he started talking to me online and i decided to too. He asked me how my holidays were so far and i responded by saying the common answer that most (not all) say, which is "good". i asked him the same question then we talked and talked and talked.
And all of the sudden after about 5-10 minutes of silence he had said "listen, we need to talk". When he said that a strong wind hit me and with fear i knew what was going to happen next (then again don't we all?).
So he started saying how he didn't feel the same way about as before and how the connection just lost it's power and stuff. And while he was listing all the reasons i nodded saying yes and agreeing with all of those things because they were true. i asked if we could still be friends and he said that would be great.
When that was finished i was begining to feel so happy...i don't know why but i guess i wanted to make a fresh new begining. i came to school and surprisingly no one was asking me about the break up and i was feeling great. UNTIL, the next day when everyone crowded around me and asked me how it happened...a few had even laughed at me because i had been dumped. i didn't take it personally at first but then all those comments and questions started to sink in and my smile quickly turned into a frown. i was feeling very down during that week, i couldn't go to sleep at night...the only thing i could do was cry in bed quietly hoping no one would hear me. Everyone didn't like the way i was acting and tried to hard to cheer me up but nothing worked and when i saw Cameron in the hall or somewhere i would turn around and make sure he didn't see me.
But luckily, everything turned around and i was begining to feel so much better a little while later. i realized that there would be a lot more guys in the future and i had nothing to be upset about, and like they say, "guys are not worth your tears".
We are currently NOT friends anymore (well that's what it seems like) and i haven't talked to him ever since the day he broke up with me. i'm not upset...i'm actually doing pretty well. So what if i still didn't meet a guy yet? There's always tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that and soo on. And besides, it doesn't matter if i have one or not...that's not the only thing that would make me happy.
Anyway, i'm gonna go to beddy now...it's getting kinda late and i have school tomorrow.
bbyyee..
Oh yea...and if you're looking for me...i'll be reading Christine's blog...that's where you can find me most of the time. Her blog is VERRYY interesting that's why i read it during my spare time. Check it out...i promise you will love it :D. www.ohchristine.blogspot.com
Laatterr<3
Yupperrss...its the person who doesn't write often..hahaa.
Heehe...sorry if i'm kinda high. i don't really know what happened but i was drinking water and being my normal self until i heard a song that got me to get up and dance like...um...a chimp getting high on crack. Weird example..but i'll use it.
Anyway, to start off i would like to say perfectly clear that CAMERON AND I ARE OVER. It happened pretty simple, like most break-ups do. i didn't "feel" like talking to him that much over the winter holidays because i didn't like the way he was acting. He was just being very lazy and boring and didn't wanna do anything so i was like "forget it" and just stopped contacting him for a little while.
Then on January 3rd, he started talking to me online and i decided to too. He asked me how my holidays were so far and i responded by saying the common answer that most (not all) say, which is "good". i asked him the same question then we talked and talked and talked.
And all of the sudden after about 5-10 minutes of silence he had said "listen, we need to talk". When he said that a strong wind hit me and with fear i knew what was going to happen next (then again don't we all?).
So he started saying how he didn't feel the same way about as before and how the connection just lost it's power and stuff. And while he was listing all the reasons i nodded saying yes and agreeing with all of those things because they were true. i asked if we could still be friends and he said that would be great.
When that was finished i was begining to feel so happy...i don't know why but i guess i wanted to make a fresh new begining. i came to school and surprisingly no one was asking me about the break up and i was feeling great. UNTIL, the next day when everyone crowded around me and asked me how it happened...a few had even laughed at me because i had been dumped. i didn't take it personally at first but then all those comments and questions started to sink in and my smile quickly turned into a frown. i was feeling very down during that week, i couldn't go to sleep at night...the only thing i could do was cry in bed quietly hoping no one would hear me. Everyone didn't like the way i was acting and tried to hard to cheer me up but nothing worked and when i saw Cameron in the hall or somewhere i would turn around and make sure he didn't see me.
But luckily, everything turned around and i was begining to feel so much better a little while later. i realized that there would be a lot more guys in the future and i had nothing to be upset about, and like they say, "guys are not worth your tears".
We are currently NOT friends anymore (well that's what it seems like) and i haven't talked to him ever since the day he broke up with me. i'm not upset...i'm actually doing pretty well. So what if i still didn't meet a guy yet? There's always tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that and soo on. And besides, it doesn't matter if i have one or not...that's not the only thing that would make me happy.
Anyway, i'm gonna go to beddy now...it's getting kinda late and i have school tomorrow.
bbyyee..
Oh yea...and if you're looking for me...i'll be reading Christine's blog...that's where you can find me most of the time. Her blog is VERRYY interesting that's why i read it during my spare time. Check it out...i promise you will love it :D. www.ohchristine.blogspot.com
Laatterr<3
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