Bump In The Road

Guess who's back?:p.
Yupperrss...its the person who doesn't write often..hahaa.
Heehe...sorry if i'm kinda high. i don't really know what happened but i was drinking water and being my normal self until i heard a song that got me to get up and dance like...um...a chimp getting high on crack. Weird example..but i'll use it.
Anyway, to start off i would like to say perfectly clear that CAMERON AND I ARE OVER. It happened pretty simple, like most break-ups do. i didn't "feel" like talking to him that much over the winter holidays because i didn't like the way he was acting. He was just being very lazy and boring and didn't wanna do anything so i was like "forget it" and just stopped contacting him for a little while.
Then on January 3rd, he started talking to me online and i decided to too. He asked me how my holidays were so far and i responded by saying the common answer that most (not all) say, which is "good". i asked him the same question then we talked and talked and talked.
And all of the sudden after about 5-10 minutes of silence he had said "listen, we need to talk". When he said that a strong wind hit me and with fear i knew what was going to happen next (then again don't we all?).
So he started saying how he didn't feel the same way about as before and how the connection just lost it's power and stuff. And while he was listing all the reasons i nodded saying yes and agreeing with all of those things because they were true. i asked if we could still be friends and he said that would be great.
When that was finished i was begining to feel so happy...i don't know why but i guess i wanted to make a fresh new begining. i came to school and surprisingly no one was asking me about the break up and i was feeling great. UNTIL, the next day when everyone crowded around me and asked me how it happened...a few had even laughed at me because i had been dumped. i didn't take it personally at first but then all those comments and questions started to sink in and my smile quickly turned into a frown. i was feeling very down during that week, i couldn't go to sleep at night...the only thing i could do was cry in bed quietly hoping no one would hear me. Everyone didn't like the way i was acting and tried to hard to cheer me up but nothing worked and when i saw Cameron in the hall or somewhere i would turn around and make sure he didn't see me.
But luckily, everything turned around and i was begining to feel so much better a little while later. i realized that there would be a lot more guys in the future and i had nothing to be upset about, and like they say, "guys are not worth your tears".
We are currently NOT friends anymore (well that's what it seems like) and i haven't talked to him ever since the day he broke up with me. i'm not upset...i'm actually doing pretty well. So what if i still didn't meet a guy yet? There's always tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that and soo on. And besides, it doesn't matter if i have one or not...that's not the only thing that would make me happy.
Anyway, i'm gonna go to beddy now...it's getting kinda late and i have school tomorrow.

bbyyee..

Oh yea...and if you're looking for me...i'll be reading Christine's blog...that's where you can find me most of the time. Her blog is VERRYY interesting that's why i read it during my spare time. Check it out...i promise you will love it :D. www.ohchristine.blogspot.com

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